Who am I on Twitter now? (Part 2)

One of the (many) good things about blogging is that every once in awhile you see something on Twitter that reminds you of something you’ve wrote about in the past. That happened today, with @katiesci:

As a recovering academic myself, I relate so much to this. When I left academia two years ago I also felt somewhat lost in the twitterverse. And I wrote about it – you can read my post “Who am I on Twitter now?“. And because of today’s Twitter convo, I felt it would be good to address it again, more than one year after I wrote that post.

Yes, there was a period where I slowed down my twitter time, and felt like I had nothing to contribute to the conversations I’d see there. I’ve also considerably slowed down blogging during that period (in 2015 I wrote only 4 posts for the whole year!). But I believe this was part of the big changes that one undergo as we leave academia. You’ve been in that environment for so long, put so much effort and time into that, it’s tough to live a life that doesn’t involve this anymore.

But Twitter, as life, is not just about work, we build real relationships there! And those are too valuable to be lost. You might lose a couple of acquaintances here and there, but still, you are part of a community! And the thing is, everything changes. I am not the same person I was when I started using twitter, and neither is the sci community out there. Even if you stay in academia, you might start tweeting as a grad student, then you move to a postdoc, or a junior PI and your view of things change! And even if you don’t change, people out there do. I miss when we would set up google hangouts with tweeps and just chat about lab life while drinking wine. Or the youtube pubscience when some researchers would discuss science live on camera – mostly pseudos wearing masks to protect their IRL identity. It was fun! That doesn’t happen anymore, and it’s not because I left academia (or at least I hope I’m not being left out of those…).

Because those changes happen over a long period of time, you fail to notice them. The process of leaving academia can be long, but when it actually happens it is something abrupt, so it may take some time for you to adjust to it. Personally, I don’t really know when or how I started to feel comfortable on Twitter again. I think it was just another change that happened slowly and I wasn’t really aware of it. I know I follow more “alternative” accounts now that I did in the past. Still mostly scientists, but having a diverse TL helps.

In the end it’s mainly about sharing your thoughts, your ideas and your passion. Or to vent. And to incite discussion! Twitter is awesome (minus the trolls, of course), and I am so glad I didn’t quit. I might have lost a couple of followers in the process, but I am happy to say that I believe I’ve found my new niche and made new friends.

Life is a dynamical system, and just like math, can be affected by many variables. And if you look at life’s bifurcation diagram you’ll notice there is more than one possible steady-state in there. You may oscillate a bit transitioning from one to the other, but eventually the system (your life) will find its way to the next steady-state!

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Choices

You are more powerful than you think. I am a truly believer of this, and of the phrase “be careful with what you wish”

One of the most difficult things for me when I left academia was to work from home, by myself. As a 100% extroverted person, the lack of human interaction hurts. Everyday by 4pm or so I felt like a wild animal in a cage and simply HAD to go out from my house to do ANYTHING that involved people around me. Yeah, being extroverted sometimes is not as easy as you may think it is!

That’s the reason I’ve applied for a part time job at the hospital with a friend. Now I screen newborn babies for hearing loss and I am pretty happy about it. It is a ‘casual’ part-time – I usually work 2x/week, about 5h per day, and sometimes during weekends. It doesn’t pay much, but it serves my purpose of a nice distraction from my main job. And it feels good to help!

Occasionally, I also used to serve as a local interpreter, helping Spanish speaking people that need medical attention and cannot communicate in English. It turns out that now there is a person from Guatemala that is doing physical therapy 2x/week and I’ve been constantly on call for this last month. And that happened more unless at the same time when I started my 2nd job. So from one slow job, it suddenly turned into 3 jobs!

Now my life is a big huge and busy mess. I’ve learned to be more focused on my primary job, and it is easier to wait for email responses. But I feel I have been neglecting a bit of my PMS personna. Haven’t been able to be on Twitter that much, haven’t been blogging, and my job applications have slowed down. Luckily, I’ve been finding the time to keep up with our #DiversityJC and the Recovering Academic podcast (season 2 coming soon!) – thanks to my dear friends, co-moderators, and co-hosts @DrEmilySKlein, @IHStreet, and @ladyscientist 🙂

Sometimes I wonder if I made the right choices, filling all my life with extra work instead of focusing on finding a new job that would fulfil my science and people needs. But I am happy with the amount of human interaction I have now. And having more idle time would not make me work harder, because I’d just spend more time away from the computer trying to fill the need to be around people. I’m starting to adjust to this new rhythm of life. I just wished my day would have more than 24hs lately!